Rainer's third granny - an apple named Smith!

My son Rainer and I had a lovely morning together yesterday! We SHARED a granny smith apple! Nothing earth shattering or mind blowing... just apple sharing. It was very cute. After reading one of his books that has different kids dressed as adults in different professions, he flipped back to page two where the little "farmer" girl was eating an apple and smiled and pointed to her. Then he pointed at the apple and said "Yum" (a new word of his) and did this lip smacking sound that he does when he is hungry. I quickly got out a perfect organic granny smith apple and took a bite and made a sour face. This made him laugh and then he took it and bit into it and made HIS sour face and we both laughed. From then on he took bites and then held it for me to take bites while we read books and played. He shared this apple with me alternating bite for bite the whole time! When he would hold it for a long moment and forget about sharing, I would make MY lip smacking sound and he would give me more. It was simply the best! Might sound silly, but it really was.

Yesterday for the first time in a long while, I was just happy to be a mom and be home with him. I didn't need to be or do anything else. The dishes could stack up, the house could go to pot, and the emails stay unanswered. And I didn't feel the pressure I usually am surrounded by that tells me that I should be MORE than just a mom. That crazy voice that makes me feel as though I am not fully realizing some kind of potential or something. Yesterday, I could just enjoy him and enjoy the gift of being in the presence of this amazingly beautiful and open soul. What an important job I have! Raising a human being. I could just allow myself to feel happy and lucky and blessed to be with this child every day who teaches me so much. Will this feeling last? I don't know, but for now I have rediscovered that I am happy. I quess I always have been but just didn't allow myself to fully take it in and acknowledge it. As if I didn't have the right to be happy being 'just a mom." As I wrote that last line, Rainer blew a fart on my leg and laughed... guess that is my cue to go play again! Maybe this is how one gets their own childhood back.:-)